It began today. My dance with self love. My dance with being enough. My dance with my soul. It took me by surprise. At a busy stop light in Miami Beach. The cars were lined up in front of me. This gave me enough time to daydream. To ask a question. To receive an answer. […]
Have you ever woken up and your chi is at an all time low? Have you felt stumped like, what the heck am I down about? I was fine yesterday!
Well sometimes there’s an accumulation of energy over night while you are sleeping that needs to get released. Sometimes there is an accumulation of energy over the course of your life that needs to get released- energy backed up from emotional blocks originating from all kinds of trauma-things that happened in the past, or you thought happened that you never really dealt with.
It feels funky.
There may not even be a story or a memory attached to the feeling. You just feel bad/low/down/ dreary, whatever word you want to describe the experience of your chi descending into the dumps.
So what do you do?
Do you drink your coffee run to the gym, hide under the covers, sulk, call your best friend and complain, listen to Esther Hicks, recite positive affirmation, dive into your work, call in sick? Do you find that none of it helps, or it helps only a little?
So what now?
It’s actually simple, but we don’t often do it.
First, notice the feeling: the density, the blah, the contraction, the heaviness. Don’t judge it. Watch it. Feel it. Allow it to move.
Allow it to pass. Let it go.
All feelings are energy.
All energy wants to move up and out.
Judging, fighting it, ignoring it, created the block to begin with.
Last September, I travelled to Georgia for a 10 Day silent Vipassana meditation retreat. All distractions were eliminated. No phone, TV, books, writing or talking. No other forms of meditation or prayer were allowed. I was asked to simply watch and observe, as the sensations moved through my body.
One might think that with the elimination of all these distractions, it would be easier to dive deep down and find stillness.
Because the mind is the greatest entertainer. At least mine is. Perhaps that’s why I haven’t owned a TV in 20 years.
At first, all I could think about was sex. Then my thoughts morphed into the inflammation I was experiencing around my belly from all the soy products I was eating and how no one wold want to have sex with me when I came home because I was soy inflamed.
If that wasn’t enough, I started imagining all the funny things I would tell people after the retreat about the retreat. All this to amuse myself. All this not to be present.
The facilitator reassured me it was all normal an urged me to refocus on my breath and keep observing the sensations. This was the path to clearing the karma- the backed up emotions.
I must admit I had a few truly peaceful and blissful moments.
The majority of time was struggling with just letting the intense feelings be. I found myself doing the same thing I’m always doing in my life: not allowing myself to have my experience. Arguing with myself. Berating myself and trying to change what I’m experiencing. Then feeling guilty for why I can’t transcend my negativity.
I mean, come on, I’m a spiritual woman and I have the power to shift my experience!! This is what I’ve learned from so many sources. But so many of those sources failed to mention that the experience shifts once it’s expressed. Once its fully experienced.
And all I need to do for that is get out of the way.
After the retreat was over, I watched as people stared at me wide eyed, in disbelief that I could spend 10 days in silence. I felt like there was an expectation, like I was supposed to say something profound. Something enlightening.
I never did break through to a “next level” of consciousness, or move into the 5th dimension, or astral travel, or have a Kundalini awakening. All very cool experiences, but really unnecessary in my opinion to feel truly free.
The few times I felt free, there was a deep peace. A lightness. There were no fireworks. It was simple. Bland. Some might classify the experience as boring.
What really happened was that at the end of the journey I grew a new muscle. The allowing myself to feel whatever is there muscle. I stopped trying to figure out where the heaviness was coming from, what experience, trauma, past life, family pattern or whatever its source was. Like every muscle it requires strength training so it doesn’t atrophy.
The experience was tough. Sometimes painful. And I would do it again. I’m doing it now. As I write. I’m trying to do it every day.
You don’t need to go into the mountains for 10 days.
Just let it up. Just let it go.
Learn to sit with yourself and feel. There will never be a good time. So do it now.
Let the energy express itself. Your’e truly worth it.
As always, Love, Light and Good Fun Shway for Your Journey!
I’m super excited to be featured in the July/August issue of Ocean Drive magazine. Thank you Carla Torres for such a nice write up and giving this ancient art the exposure it needs to help people clear, release, heal, flow and align their intentions with their space! If you’ve ever been curious about feng shui/space clearing or would like to get certified, I believe there is a real market opening up in Miami and it would be my honor to teach you to clear homes. There are still spots available in my two day Get Feng Shui Certified training July 30 and 31 and I’m extending the early bird discount for another week. I hope you will join us.
Feng Shui From The Heart Practitioner Training Level I and II with Inessa Freylekhman “Are you an intuitive individual looking to make a positive difference in the lives of others through a lucrative and flexible career?” “Are you already doing so and desire a deeper, more profound way to impact your client’s lives personally and […]
Workshop @ I am Equilibrium
One of the most important enhancements to creating optimal Feng Shui is the entry to your home.
Ideally, your front door area should be well lit, aesthetically pleasing, clearly indicated as the entry, inviting, charming, and give an impression of the home’s tenants. If your front door isn’t visible from the road, then its possible that the chi will pass you by.
If you haven’t signed up already, please join me for this journey into the heart of your bedroom on Thursday June 21 at 5:30 PST. Read more
“Is Your Bedroom blocking you from love?
Your bedroom could be sending this message –
“LOVE STAY AWAY.”
I can’t tell you how many women I’ve worked with (including myself) where their bedroom was broadcasting a negative belief about love.
I’ve seen major miracles occur when we bring our intention and attention to our bedroom to transform it into a sanctuary where our heart’s desire can thrive.
Whether that be manifesting an incredible partnership or partaking in more self nurturing activities, your bedroom is the first place to go to set the foundation for the love you want!
If you are ready to Feng Shui your bedroom and turn your love life around, then you don’t want to miss this live telesimar where I will show you why applying the ancient art of Feng Shui your bedroom will bring true love into your life.
This live teleseminar will be hosted by the wise and heart-centered Pamela Vandevoort, The Dating for True Love Expert!!
You will learn how to:
- Set up your bedroom to magnetize love
- Create a sacred space to open up to greater intimacy and attracting your great love
- Journey into the heart of the bedroom and turn it into a sanctuary for love and rejuvenation!
*Time permitting, I will lead you in a special meditation to release old entanglements from your energy grids to create the literal and energetic space for our True Love!
Click here to sign up…
I can’t wait to “see” you on the call!
We had a deeply moving and transformational call last night on The Year of the Dragon Tele-Seminar Series.
I led everyone in a special meditation at the end of the call called, “Happy Home, Happy Heart.”
Read some of the responses I’ve already received,
“I also had tears from the meditation; tears of JOY for all the
Sharing more love….Inessa’s Call this evening with Feng Shui guidance was amazing!!! I experienced the most profound healing from her guided meditation!!! I am applying all of the suggestions to my home tomorrow. I will listen to the re-play because I Know there was a wealth of information I feel that I missed. She has such a unique gift & niche. Wow, delighted, enlivened, and thoroughly grateful!!! Thank you to the hosts of this summit!!!! Infinite Blessings,
EXPERIENCE this meditation for Yourself…and all the wonderful tidbits of information that was shared.
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With Warmth, Love & Gratitude,
If you have an office space and are seeing clients, as a healer, coach, therapist, masseuse, psychiatrist, doctor, lawyer, insurance agent, yoga instructor, nutritionist, etc, then it’s imperative that you bring your attention to your environment and how it may be impacting your practice.
My personal story about looking for a couples therapist in Miami, which highlights this theme was featured today on Dr. Eva Ritvo’s Blog on Psychology Today.
If you would like to know how to maximize your space for the deepest level of healing, please read this article. At the end there are questions that will help you start looking at your space from symbolic eyes! Also, please provide your comments. I would love to hear your feedback on this topic and it will help me spread my message of the importance of setting on psyche!
Sending amazing chi your way!
Have Fun with your Shway : )